Friday

Well it's Friday, and my Dad is still about the same. I know things aren't going to magically get better, but yesterday he was doing so good. And then last night it all went down hill. He had 2 panic attacks, his heart rate increased to 140, and his blood pressure went up to 160/79..which is the highest it's been. He also has a fever, and his oxygen levels went down. He had been breathing off the machine all day yesterday, but after the attacks they turned him back on. It's just been an emotionally draining week, I'm used to talking to my Dad every day, sometimes twice a day. All I want is to hear him say it's going to be okay. I still have all my faith in God, and it's incredible b/c I can already see God working through this. Last night when it was getting hairy, I just started praying out loud..and I felt like it changed the whole attitude of the room. I'm going down there for just a little bit today, I'm missing my husband and Jack, and need some time with them. I also have some family coming up that is going to be at the hospital so we can all rest and just take a day to ourselves. I feel almost like I'm being selfish but I know Dad wants me to take care of my family as well. And I'm starting to get emotionally exhausted..so just keep praying, we appreciate it so much. Thanks!