Defeated..

I realized I haven't posted in a while..that is how busy I am. I also realized yesterday I was not in the Christmas mood..or not even in the mood to be thankful. That is when I realized that someone was trying to make me feel defeated..my heart has been so heavy this past week..for so many people, so much going on, and being sick has not helped either. That is when I realized the devil was trying to defeat me..

I'm sure we've all felt this way a time or two..why isn't our prayers being answered, when I'm practically CRYING out to God..why does bad things happen to those good people?..and why oh why do I feel like God isn't listening? Have you been there? That was me this week..an emotional war going on inside my heart. Then today..I finally did what God was telling me to do all along.."to be still..and to listen"..isn't that hard to do though? Here I am asking,asking,asking..and not once stopping to listen. Mark 14:38 tells us to "Watch and Pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak". Wow..right there God showed me that he was listening...and matter of fact..he already knew ;) Isn't it crazy to think God already knows the outcome of EVERY situation..every breath!! I can't imagine not having Him to lean on.. on Monday I celebrated being a Christian for 5 years...I will never forget that special night when I asked Jesus to be my Lord & Savior..so that I know this world is not my home!! I'm not living the unknown every day..but I'm living to glorify God..and boy, I can't wait to go Home ;) I am so thankful for my ladies at bible study this week..I'm thankful we are a "prayer warrior team".I am also thankful for my church family..what a week we have had..crying over a loss of a sweet child..rejoicing over the Armstrongs passing court in Ethiopia..and over Josiah and the Bidwell family, finally a family of 4;) I'm thankful God listens to my crazy prayers sometimes..he has blessed me with so much ;) Have a wonderful week and remember if you are ever feeling defeated to "be still..and listen" ;)